Episode 1: Mars Ingresses Into Aries

Episode one, where Mars ingresses into Aries and we find out what this podcast is going to look like in real time. With no intro, no music, no by-hand editing, because if I wait on those, this will never be published.

Transcript

SPEAKER_02 0:00

Here I am on Thursday, April 9th, 2026, recording the first episode of Mindful Necromancy, and I refuse to be hermetically sealed inside my home. It is one of the worst feelings to be shut inside and not being able to open the windows. We just got windows replaced not even a month ago, and all of the windows prior to that were basically glued shut from being taped or painted over for decades. And I already knew that I hated not being able to get fresh air. I don't care what time of year it is, but I am even more grateful now. The issue is that outside does have sounds, and I have never been more um, I've never felt more compassion for YouTubers who constantly apologize for white noise. And at the same time, I always hate that they apologize because they are frankly going out and doing a vulnerable thing by recording something and sharing it. And God forbid it's not perfect. And so um I'm coming at you here with this same energy. It is actually the last 40 minutes of Mars in Pisces, and I'm really curious to record this now before Mars hits that zero degrees Aries point in like a little over half an hour just to see what the difference in energy is like. I thought about waiting, but the whole issue is that I can find every fucking excuse in the book not to do this. So here I am recording. I do think that I will try to actually record the true thoughts that I um kind of reflected on starting to share. Maybe at that 3.36 p.m. point, it's 2.47 p.m. right now. And at the same time, I don't know, fuck it. There's so much throat clearing right now, which yeah, obviously on a mundane level can be because of how much coffee I had this morning and that I'm dehydrated and where I'm at in my cycle, and you know, so on and so forth, taking my zertec because it's spring and there are like a thousand different arboreal allergens floating around outside. But obviously, we're talking about mercury and the throat because I'm here recording something that I feel compelled to share on the one hand, and on the other, feel deeply um vulnerable and awkward about, as many people do because it's kind of purely creative, it's a purely creative endeavor, and it feels I'm a Libra rising, and so Saturn and all these other transits are going through my seventh house, and and with that, I'm getting so much. As not an outsider, but you know, with that honesty. And I don't know, I mean, it's more and less than that all at once. But uh being a Libra, everything kind of it always feels like it needs to be sort of in service of someone else or in balance. And it's like, well, if I'm not in an active conversation with another person on the other side of this microphone or screen, then I don't know what to say. I need that like back and forth um material, the fodder, the grist for the mill. Maybe I'll cut out the coughing and the throat clearing, or maybe I won't. But I can already, I mean, I've been feeling, as we all have in our own ways, the energy of this time. Obviously, with Aries, it's responding to no one and nothing. It just is doing because it wants to, which is so alien for me. And yet, in that vein, and of course, the trash truck and the recycling are gonna come around, and possibly the leaf blowers, so stay tuned. But I guess really what's happening is I'm sitting over there in Aries in the seventh and just talking to myself, which takes the edge off. It also means I'm talking to myself, and my voice and all the meaning that it's carrying is crossing over all of my shit, meaning all of my internalized beliefs and worries, and fears, and complexes, and applied meanings, and the entire subconscious fabric that we're only ever like picking up one point of. And also, while I don't want to justify it as sort of an emotional crutch to lean on as a defense, I also know that it's true just from when I do speak openly right from where I'm sitting in that moment in time, that everyone else is kind of feeling the same thing, their own iteration and version of it. That would be true whether you were an Astro believer or not. But I therefore know through experience and subsequent reasoning that it helps to. Feeling like there needs to be some justification. Like, oh, I'm sharing this because I want to change someone's life, or because I want to sell them something, or because I want to like promulgate an idea. I don't really care. I also don't even want to have to couch it in in the stars saying, Oh, I need to do this because Saturn is an Aries or because Mars is entering the zero degrees Aries point. Yes, it on the one hand, you could say is related to that, is in the flow of that in its column. But um in this subtle way that sort of can feel like a justification. Again, it's that like qualifying something and feeling like you need a reason or a defense rather than just being like, this just is, and I'm just doing it and being. So that is, I guess, what I needed to hear right now. And maybe you did too. I don't really. It's not that I don't care in like a shitty way, it's that it doesn't really matter. Because no one might ever listen to this except for me. That's fine. And I'm doing it for me because I want to, and that's enough. And man, there are people out there who just like go about their days in that energy, and that is fucking incredible. So cool, it's so cool. I have to like psych myself up to get there, which is funny. It's funny and it's annoying, and it's you know, you know how you get lovingly like annoyed at people when they like hem and haw, and they're like, but minute, minute, I have to convince myself. And it's like, stop, stop being like a martyr. I see you're trying to overcome this like martyr complex, but don't even worry about it, just do it. Just do it. Who is it? S.J. Anderson talking about the Nike brand, and like he was like, I'd love to see what that natal chart looks like. And that's so funny because same, but anyway, I'm gonna pause this here and I'm gonna come back in what I guess about 42 minutes. I'm gonna go paint the trim in my hallway, or at least start to. I guess I better change into clothes I'm willing to mess up. Because that stuff obviously never comes out, and um set a timer and come back. Well, here it is. Because it's 3.37 and sometime in the 336 minute, there was a second at which Mars went into Aries. And I'm glad that I sat down to capture what last little bit of that Piscean era had to offer with all of its like uncertainty and internal for better and for worse, nebulousness and confusion.

SPEAKER_00 11:07

And it was funny because I could totally feel the need to individuate show up, so I'm actually gonna do right here what we do here, which is sit in silence and observe and also be in and feel into this moment.

SPEAKER_02 11:56

And instead of cutting this out later, I'm going to keep all of this time in because that's like half the point, right?

SPEAKER_01 12:05

And I wouldn't have thought to do that on a medium that's recorded where you think, oh, it's not like a guided meditation, it's a podcast. So you're supposed to yap the whole time.

SPEAKER_02 12:18

So the gifts of insight that come along as we do, rather than just sit and ponder. So if there's ever anyone else listening to this, I invite you to do the same thing. Sit in your body, get off your phone, stop reading things, turn away from whatever screen you're on, and sit and just notice notice the moment around you. So no surprises that Neptune in Aries, Neptune anywhere at any time is more elusive. And yeah, of course, there are some like basic delineations you can gather from wherever it is in the sky. And at the same time, it's really definitionally hard to put your finger on. And I just realized that in this process that like I am literally engaged in right now, it's very much like a learning by doing. And with Saturn there, I mean, for every conceivable reason that makes sense. It's sort of like having to go and do the thing anyway, even if you don't feel ready or you don't know what you're doing, or it's a mess, or you know, Saturn and fall. And um, anyway, that's that's made sense. You know, the idea that I would be um, you know, experimenting with this format, like to what end? Frankly, don't know. Trusting the process. Enter Neptune. But like the fact that I I don't care about editing out unless it's like really loud and obnoxious and gonna like cause a massive like nervous system trigger for someone. I don't want to edit out moments of birds or you know, noises in the background. It's very raw. Like, frankly, I just don't have the time. I have a full-time job. I have kids. I just don't, it's not that I don't care. It's that like I cannot sacrifice for something that in just like the neighbor's little scare the DR off alarm. I don't know if you can hear that. But it's like there's not the time in the world right now to be that meticulous. And so that I knew that there's like this raw learn as you go energy, but the Neptune just came through so strongly, realizing that like intuiting it's not just learning by doing in like the practical earthen sense. It is like the guidance and the trust in whatever's going to happen next, supposed to happen next. I don't care if that's trust in yourself or trust in the cosmos or trust in like, I don't know, whatever the fuck.

SPEAKER_00 19:00

Every manifestation, it's like there is no, there's nothing but the present moment to give you that. I mean, to a degree. It's still Neptune.

SPEAKER_02 19:15

I still sat there for a minute in silence, not because I was deep in profound thought, but because I was like, well, fuck, I kind of forgot what the insight was.

SPEAKER_01 19:25

So Neptune, love.

SPEAKER_02 19:28

But anyway, learning like, what's the purpose of this? I was fighting with myself, like, yeah, I I'm gonna, I'm gonna talk and record and then put it someplace, potentially for other people to hear and see. But I really don't want to like have to write something in advance. I'm just gonna be extemporaneous about it. Like every perfectionistic bone in my body was like, what and thought that was awful for obvious reasons. And, you know, not without some truth to it. If you are completely off the cuff at any time, it's not really bounded. And like if you don't have a particular focus, it just goes all over the place. And, you know, you can ramble on forever, and sometimes that's helpful, and sometimes it can be like, oh, that's kind of gratuitous, sort of like mental masturbation, or you know, just loving to hear yourself talk or what have you. And I think the difference is in this sort of not chattering for chatter's sake, or to feel more real or legitimate in the world in some sort of like sort of superfluous way, but to actually tune into something deeper and more real and try to put some words to it in a way that puts your finger on something more real and more transcendent and deeply important that any given moment in time has to offer.

SPEAKER_00 21:37

Sure.

SPEAKER_02 21:38

I'm sure there will be times where in this endeavor I make mistakes. And I'm like, wow, I was kind of yapping there. Like, what kind of service did that provide? Or like be wrong. Like, I went to tape and paint and like eat a little bit of lunch and was like, is that how is that? What Pramilgate means? Like so, I don't know, maybe I was wrong on that. And it's not that I don't care and that it doesn't matter, but like mistakes happen, right?

SPEAKER_00 22:12

So that will happen, and I think that's the point.

SPEAKER_02 22:19

I think that's part of the point. We are all deeply afraid to make mistakes. I mean, like, as humans, we do that, but how much of our social media I mean, depending on what you feed your algorithm and what it feeds back to you, it's like it's like a lodestone. It's like a lodestone spell. Look that up if you don't know what it is. But um You know, a lot of it is about like unpacking the trauma of being told you're wrong and that you do things incorrectly, and like obviously that has value. I'm a psychotherapist. And at the same time, in a more visceral way, forget what the content is saying. It's more the huh vibe of the world right now, at least where I live. Where we're actually deeply afraid to step, quote, out of line. Or we have been, but goddamn, I don't know a single person who I've talked to. A single person who I've talked to. Clients or family or friends are like randos who over the past like month hasn't been like, damn, I'm deeply sick of this. And it's not that anyone, well, some people are. It's not that it's like, well, I'm gonna just go carelessly careening into like doing whatever I want impulsively without a thought in the world, like, yeah, those people exist. And they were already doing that, and they will just continue until it seems more useful to them, to them to do something else. But um there's only so far we can go in trying to like be perfect in some way. And so Neptune and Saturn in Aries is so messy, it just by definition, messy, and like, well, putting one foot in front of the other, and like not even in a sense of like to climb the mountain, get to your goal, you must put one foot in front of the other. Like, yeah, that's true, but this isn't Capricorn. Like, we actually have no fucking idea where we're going. Not a single one of us knows where we're going. And that's like kind of freeing and exhilarating, but none of us know. And that's really weird. I have not experienced a Saturn in Aries in any kind of like sort of. I was probably I was in elementary school. Yeah, I was definitely in elementary school when this transit last happened. So I mean, haven't experienced it in a way where I was sort of conscious in that way that you kind of start to be around 13. So I'm super, I don't know. But that time was in a different place in the skies. So I'd love to hear from some folks who went through that, walked through that, how that felt different. But hard to even compare yet because we're we're so new in this. So a couple of things are becoming clear to me about what I want to spend time doing. Not that I, again, sort of by definition, don't feel don't think, don't believe that when I record this, that I'm always gonna do the same thing or follow the same format. At least for this period in time, I don't think that's the way. But this might not make sense to literally anybody else in the world, maybe like two other people, and cool if two other people like it, or if no one else likes it, at least it's good for me. But one of the things that is making sense to me right now is that this um the way I'm going to talk about the sky and what's happening in it is not going to be from a starting point of this is what we know is happening, and therefore, let's kind of, I guess, inductively reason through where this is showing up in our lives. Like, you can do I mean, obviously, there's value in that. It's just a lot of other people do that really well that do it better than me. And there's some merit to the fact that, like, just because other people are already talking about something doesn't mean that you shouldn't add your voice to the conversation. And at the same time, uh, you gotta speak and share in a way that works for you. And there's always going to be something unique in that. So the sort of extemporaneous feeling into the moment, um sometimes you tune in and it's only then that you through that silence and that witnessing of the moment and listening internally, that is where you really feel the interface of the astrological energies in your own life. So while Friday's Venus, Pluto square, you know, you could say, Oh, well, it's happening my in my between my X and Y houses, and so that's probably where it's going to come up for each and every individual. You know, there's only so far that that will take you. And so that's why people often are like, oh, I'm not really sure what's happening with the transit, and like, how's it really impacting me? And and sometimes it's really obvious and literal, and it just hits you across the face, and that's great. Who doesn't love that? Well, I don't know, sometimes it's deeply unpleasant. But um you know, sometimes it's really internal. And I mean, okay, sure, there are certain transits that are going through, like by their definitions are about hidden things or things that you don't know what they're going to mean, or they'll only take shape and and clair, clarify, and form until you know, it's gonna take time and and reflection and like retro, a retrospective sort of thing, for that to become clear. But barring any of the above scenarios, like really it's when you tune into what's really going on inside that you will actually come face to face with what those transits mean for you. And in addition to like, yeah, hell yeah, maybe I'll take the talking medium, which is a podcast, and just be quiet on it, at least for some of the time. Um that's something that we can do here that's a little different. Maybe in the future I won't ramble so much about it, but I I almost don't even want to be too hard on myself. I recorded this first episode because I knew I needed to just do it and I didn't know what I would talk about. And so after kind of sitting with that for a few minutes, I was like, you know what? I just have to show up and do it, and whatever I'm feeling in that moment is what it's going to be. And I already feel like I gave myself that gift by following through. And I feel like I got a couple extra gifts of insight into perhaps what the form of this will look like, at least a lot of the time. So um it's not that I'm not nervous or afraid, it's that I I don't care anymore, and so I hit record. And it's not that I don't know because there are lots of things that I know, and there are lots of things that I see, and I know that they also hit for other people, and so um it's not that I don't know, but certainly I'm walking into this not knowing how. And anytime any of us are birthing anew ourselves or a thing, I mean it's it's always all the above. We don't know how, and you can't get caught up in the needing to know how before you do it. It's a it's a bicycle. So that feels like a natural place to end. Although actually this just feels like a fun thing to end on. Is sharing a couple of Saturn and Aries experiences that I had that are all kind of cute and um fun. And I know I have at least two, and the second one I've already forgotten, so throwing a fucking Hail Mary out here that that one comes back. But the first one is that before I came back to record this, I went on a walk around my neighborhood, and it's like super gorgeous outside. It's like gonna be hot as balls next week, and it was like frigid a few days ago, because that's just what this time of year is like in this part of the world that I live in. Um, but it's really nice right now, and all the blooms are out, and the green is like bam, and like everything's just really exploded, and like the sun's out, and it's just been like awesome. And so um my husband and family and I moved into our current house. I guess it would be like a little oh, a little almost a year and a half ago. And um, you know, and as much as it'd be super cool to like bake cookies and give them all to the neighbors and like meet everyone, like that's just not how life works, right? It goes in its own time. So it's kind of cool every time I meet some neighbors. The ones I've met are pretty cool so far. And um, so I'm walking and I I run into this um, this older lady, you know, she's like probably around my grandma's age, and she was wearing this like really cute, like I just really liked the color of her shirt. It was like this really like lovely pink and gray. And I was like, oh, you're just so cute and cool. And I was just feeling really bubbly. And um, so we just started talking and we introduced ourselves, and it was so funny because I don't, she didn't share how old she was, but she shared how old some of her friends are. And so I wondered if she has Saturn and Aries only, you know, like 15 minutes after we said goodbye. Because she was so like full of life and like one of those people where I'm like, damn, I want to be like you. Like she was like, I just love to have fun and like, you know, just really sharp and with it and kind of grounded, but but not necessarily with like a super like, like not necessarily with like a Taurus energy. Um, but that sort of grounded fun, like, like I was wearing a mental health themed cutesy sweatshirt that one of my friends got me. And so she's like, oh, that's cool, that's good stuff. Like, you know, do you have she was just so real? Um, and anyway, she was just a delight and like a little sassy, but not so much that it was off-putting. And, you know, just like at least, I don't know, I vibed with it. And it was so funny because, like, obviously, I don't know if it was I've heard a number of astrologers say this. I think, like, I don't know if Austin Koppick was the first one. He's the first one I heard say it, but I have heard a couple others mention it too. The um, that gif of like, uh God, what is his name? The like, hello, fellow kids, the Christopher Walken being like Saturn in Aries. And like, well, yeah, Saturn, an afflicted Saturn is never gonna be like a ton of fun, right? Like, no one's just having an easy time of it. Um, that doesn't necessarily mean it needs to be like completely shitty. That's a whole separate episode about how you can make transits less shitty for yourself by becoming consciously reflective of them. But um, I was thinking about it and I was like, oh, you know, this lady I met. We were just like kind of shooting the breeze, and you know, she was like, Yeah, there are parts of being older that are hard, and there are definitely different ways of doing it. Like, I like to be really independent, and you know, maybe that has its drawbacks and its um pros and its cons. She was like, I love to have fun. Like, I love me a martini, just like straight on the rocks, not straight on the, you know what I mean? I meant straight, just like she doesn't like them dirty. We talked about the dirty martini. But anyway, a martini on the rocks in the afternoon. She was like, eh, you know, some people wouldn't like that, but I do. And so there's this real like clarity around how what she likes, she does fully lean into and embrace. But it's not to say that it's right. It wasn't this energy of like, and I am doing it correctly, and anyone else who does it any other way is wrong. Or this, like, kind of self-pitying, like, oh, I just am not like, I wish I was different, like meh meh meh, which if I ever sound really shitty about that attitude, is because I see it on myself and being mean to me. Um, so I'm sorry if I'm shaming you as well. I'm trying to shame us out of our bad habits. But um anyway, just felt like a real, a really like positive symbol, kind of iteration, manifestation of Saturn in Aries energy. So I don't know if that's where her natal Saturn is, but at the very least, I came upon her on this day of this transit of Mars going to zero Aries hitting all that Saturn Neptune conjunction. The other example, what was it? This is the kind of thing where I don't necessarily want to make you wait with me while I remember. So maybe I'll go paint and then when I recall it, I'll pop on and add this last little bit. That's the kind of not wasting your time that I do want to commit to. So I guess yeah, I'll go paint and add a PS. And um like I said, this was for me at the very least. If it's ever on the internet and if anyone else happens to listen to it, and you happen to be one of those people, thanks for listening. And I hope there was some nugget in there, even if it's just me going first, and uh that having some kind of helpful impact on you going first in your own life. Oh my god, here's the PS. I remembered the other thing. It's like a really silly, stupid, dumb thing while also being fucking terrible for all the reasons you'll you're about to agree with me on. It's the the fucking IRGC's Lego, like diss track videos that they're making with AI, like to diss the US and Trump and all of the bullshit. Like, holy fucking hell, that is just insane Saturn Neptune in Aries to me. It's taking obviously it's AI, Neptune, it's like propaganda in any direction. Like it's um obviously it's deeply involved in this war that is a mess, and every other mundane astrologer has like done a fabulous job tracking to the starry skies. But like, oh my god, Saturn and Aries, it's like childish. That is definitely the Christopher Walken gif. Like a fucking Lego AI video diss track, like very kind of emotionally immature. Like, not that not that I'm not like, oh shit, you just got owned and none of us disagree. So, you know, not to be like, Iran, that was like really immature, like like not I'm I'm not gonna explain myself further on that one. Um, hopefully you get it. If not, I don't know, happy to clarify later or to not to, but it's just um yeah, so uh Saturn, Neptune, and Aries, and on the one hand, I love it. I love it as much as you can love something that is a manifestation of all the most fucked up shit going on in the world right now. I guess that's uh that's what I have to say on that. So yeah, laughing might be a defense mechanism, but um sometimes sometimes we engage in our defense mechanisms for good reasons. They're actually coping mechanisms. So a fun, fun last little tidbit. So thanks for uh tuning in on that little edition.